Today is my due date and I am grumpy. Things are really going downhill. My hips and back hurt so much that there is very little I can do anymore. The pain will actually wake me in the night. I've had a couple contractions but nothing ever comes of them. So I'm wondering how I'm going to cope with labor when I'm so miserable going into it. I'm sleep deprived, my hips hurt too much to walk, my back hurts too much to lie down or bend down and my nausea is wearing me out. I was in better shape last week but now I'm worried that I'm going to just be an emotional, exhausted mess when labor actually starts.
I've been doing a few things to help ease my mind. I made motivational flashcards for people to read to me when I'm feeling defeated. I've put out all the candles and incense I want for labor. I've been listening to songs that I find really calming (like this one).
I've also been practicing my labor breathing to get me through those moments of "I can't take it anymore!" Everything seems to be taking the edge off but I'm still feeling really frustrated. Come out! Come out! I promise it will be nice out here!!